New Beginnings....

So the day as finally come.....I finally feel like an adult, well, at least more than I did two weeks ago!! I moved out of my Dad's place to my own place in Minnetonka. I am not totally on my own, I have two roommates. But it is still a place that I pay for, I need to take care of, I can't rely on anyone else to take care of it but myself. It's weird.
It is still taking some getting used to. I just started sleeping through the night two nights ago. Of course, that could have been aided by the Jameson ;-) But so many new changes are happening right now in my life I don't even know where to start.
I moved.
Volleyball is over.
My classroom might totally be changing.
My grandpa has made his way up to hang out with my Mom.
Its all too much at one time!! So the game plan for now is to just breathe and keep as calm as possible. So far, its working for the most part! I have my moments now and again but I am getting better. It helps when I have such an incredible support system. My friends and family are the glue holding me together right now. Without them I think I would be locked up some where!! So thank you for all of you, you know who you are!! :-)
On the 26th my grandpa passed away and there are just too many weird coincidences with his death and my moms that I just need to share. First, they both passed away on the 26th of the month. Second, it was very close to the same time of the day. Third, they both passed after hospice was introduced to them. Forth, they both passed from cancer.
Many similarities. So I say, 'like father, like daughter'. Both extremely stubborn. I can only imagine the smile on my moms face to be able to hug her dad again. They are both in a much better place and are not suffering any more. I want to be selfish so bad and say that I want them back, but I know down here is not where they are meant to be any more. So I just tell myself, some day I'll be with them again.
Moving has kept my mind very busy though! Just when you think you couldn't possibly have any more things, you realize how much you still actually need! It is ridiculous!! But move in day was a good time thank you to Abs and Heather! I dunno what I would do without those two. My two angels watching over me!! But this is truly the first time I felt like a true adult in a long time, or ever I suppose. It still doesn't feel like home, and I dunno if it ever will. But it feels like a step in the right direction!!

I want to dedicate this blog entry to Grandpa Gus. He was an amazing man who left his mark upon many grandchildren who will do their best to carry out the life lessons he taught us!

This picture was taken at my high school graduation party. It was mugger than you could ever imagine yet grandpa was a trooper and sat through the whole thing!! Love you and miss you!! xoxo give mom a hug for me!